All I want to feel.....

This upcoming eclipse …..”with the South Node, or tail of the dragon, representing something being released” is not going to be what I thought it would be.

In the past, earth energy work aligned with the astrology coming in and utilized it to directly affect the seven chakra’s of the body. In preparing for the shift of consciousness, the first connection must be to know we are the planet and the planet is our body. The celestial events took on a pattern of three for that process…bring in the new, anchor and release the old. We had plenty of time to rock and roll along over a month in each phase. But not in today’s time cycle. We are Mayan cycling… every 18 days. Today's communication is from Mother Earth directly and she is saying “I know you and I know your story”

Every eclipse so far, has pushed through the entire 3 phase pattern, plus the solstice, which opened more doorways for me than the last year put together. (for example……it feels the time lord position has flipped wide open, the past is observable in it’s pristine intention, fully utilizable to preform the task it was meant to do. )

What this next eclipse is bringing to us is the deities of lunar origin. Originally created in the constellation of Lyra, they are coming through in their pure form of gifts from the Mother, through the Pleiades. Seven sister energy will blast through here powered by issues of days gone past, issues of anger, bitterness, jealousy etc over sexual distortions present in our lives tran-muted, shifted so they will feel like the love of the original intention in creating the gifts. Those who follow a 12 step program can know this is a Step 9 time…the promises. It is 9th Dimensional identities of you….upgraded in the harmonics and color spectrum to a new Universe….today, Now.

Observable in our lives here will be recall scenarios/stories of personal deities in past incarnations. Our pleasure principle in regards to Cancer themes of hearth and home were developed in the archtypes of this time. Hindu gods in particular, but you can be sure there will be more to show, ascended master types.

My last lover and I would zone into our past lives together during sex and the stories were better than any fantasy. Somebody or something took the pure enjoyment of sexuality and threw incest into the mix.We want to recall the love of the past and do a reality check. Nothing more than that is required because we know what felt good and what didn’t. Conflict over sexuality is so NOT confusion of what feels good….it’s the intermingling of relationship memory…For family’s to incarnate together, they came back fucking the father, mother or brother in next life.

So, to tell the truth, I quit smoking today and my ability to be pissed off over this is plenty amplified. I have a new FWB relationship going with no past life connection of intimacy. It’s a clean plate that frankly feels a void present though the sex is right up there on the top of the chart.

Today, I will repose to the shaman within, be the honey , the bee and the flower, the lamb, the lover and the earth. Love is all I want to feel today.

Blessings to you all,

xxzoey

June 16th, 2011

For a few weeks now, codes have been back and on me like white on rice. This signals the release of our Ancients and a transfer of responsibility to us, for the final days of clearing. What was not possible in other cycles of time, due to the under development of our personal, spiritual technology, is no longer relevant. This begs the question to each of us individually, whom do you serve?

This is a very delicate question to ask and it has bothered me for a long time now. I am grateful that the time is here in NOW to ask it of all of you. I share my process with you in hopes that it is helpful.

Lately, life had been back to feeling like I was sitting in the trenches, so much boredom, with too much time to question the anxiety I was feeling. I had to examine this and it begged the questions of identity. Only soldiers sit in trenches and do I want that for myself? No, plain and simple, no. I am sick to death of being triggered into dark thoughts every time I see a distortion manifested upon this reality. Why does this even happen? Because I am holding the knowledge of what was and forgetting the promise of who I am.

I recently found the last embodied member of my gestalt of nine. Unbeknown to him, was that he was holding Atlantian memory for Lotus and Dragon lineages. I was challenged to examine my own reveals over the last 6 years and came to the conclusion that not another one of my family was going to feel the pain of this drama, in order to step into a position that was quickly dissolving anyway.

As all things good here are a projection onto the screen that is us, I searched for solution and resolution. Since the start of my journey in 2005, I have had to say "yes" to so much, in spite of my fear, ignorance and innocence. Then, I was reminded of an experience many years ago, that explained to me it is truly only God that says stop in this earthly place. I dug deep into my own divinity to connect to that God power in the word "stop". I was able gently release my family member from holding the Atlantian trauma, with out pain or injury to myself.

Shortly after, I began to experience the releasing of what I refer to as Mother Source energy. As it flowed through me, there was massive rage to behold, coupled with bitterness and resentment. In my role as an Ancient, holder of the cosmic body, yet not the origin of Mother, I did not claim any of this, and in a day or two the energy changed into sadness and a feeling of destitution, loneliness and failure. These, I could relate to, having been a mother in this lifetime with all of these feelings towards parenting my children. I knew that the trick was release and it happened in a new way.

Now that we are not so multi dimensional, having anchored much into ourselves what we are, and formless within our auric field, I saw that identities of myself were layered like faces made of cellophane over the entire skull. As I pushed them up off my head, I began to fill them with all thoughts associated with the negative and immature (spiritually) emotions and sent them away. My anxiety is leveling off, though life is still quite odd.

May 7, 2011

Hi there,

We have just had two major events here on the planet...the wedding in England and the assassination in Pakistan. Both these happenings stirred up the collective emotional body to a very high level and as we process this in our physical body, we are experiencing symptoms of gastro intestional distress. We are organic and nothing digests because we are expressing the preditory nature of our life here in the artificial machine.

Two winters ago, I woke to find the pattern of the United Nations symbol holographically represented around my head. I hesitated in calling it an energetic harness and now I know why. The symbol was a projection of a future process that is "current" now. The new creation space has entered our cosmic egg and is pouring into the center, pushing the old systems off to the sides. The leaves of the symbol represent what is "leaving".... we are experiencing separation of planetary male and female "baggage". Frankly, some of the baggage is consciousness that can't be rehabbed and the rest of it is remnants of holographic, dimensional structures.


I find it quite fascinating as the new creational operating system continues to assist me in shifting my ideas as "concept" and beliefs into release of fear over the unknown , the burden of holding hope of the ascension and builds trust in the intuitive abilities locking into our space here on the planet.

When we, as source, entered this cosmic egg, it looked like the human fertilization process......egg and sperm. It created stargate systems known as the Mother and Father arch. These stargate systems are being compressed to the sides of our universe. They are obsolete. Earth was selected as the place to settle but it was not yet habitable. We spread our body through out the Universe using these stargate pathways and began the development of citizenship in star systems. We became Beings of Light/consciousness as a process of evolution.

A friend of mine states it so well.....

"The sole, singular or total purpose of evolution was to allow

Existence or eternal awareness to create Life in order to enter

life and know itself as Life, not existence.

OR in other words, Life consciously aware of ITself

creating life joyfully and creating joyful life......................"

The breakdown of coherent light generated patterns of chaos that was

re- ordered more and more by creating artificial fields, artificial ordering systems.....................

We have come to the end of evolution......"

We no longer need or want a lightbody, it was only a process that is no longer necessary.

The Flavor of the Day

We have been living in this game of the matrix for a long, long time. The collective mind of our race believes that it is real and this has been the problem all along. I can tell you, the stronghold of thought is shifting over to those with the consciousness of awareness. This action is seeping into our daily moments and the result feels surreal.

Memories from my past, snipped into tiny pieces until not much but the sensation of it is left to remember, are tapping on the windows, knocking at the door. It makes for great clarity when faced with thoughts coming through the matrix. Mine, not mine, not mine, not mine, mine. I am safe, I am loved.

Saturday, more light.........

Yesterday, I spoke of the changing brain wave patterns. They are coming in strong and here is why. The dissolving holographic structures within the body require deep work within the bones. There is a refresh button to reset our particle/wave structures and it is connected to many things. The strongest of them is the belief factor. This is a difficult concept to give up and I realize the para dime shift is a big one.

I say, to see the word belief, is to understand our fragmentation as Word. Understand what has happened to Word here in this distortion we call matrix and know that we have a clue to implanted ideas to control the masses. "In bed" with the word believe is the word lie. Hence, it is an implanted holographic structure. The makers of the mind control used our system for it all. This makes the truth available for those who see.

Ancient needs called for drastic measures and a lightbody was allowed to be placed upon us. It is a controller harness. It took our multi dimensionality and spread us out in layers, holographically in the grid work of the matrix. We could not pull our light bodies into the physical form, we were always an arm in this dimension, a foot in another, etc etc. Tied to this idea of light or energy body are religions from the Far East and their more esoteric chakra and meditation practices like yoga, martial arts and healing systems like acupuncture.


Though a concept may be easy for us as energy workers to surrender in concept, this act of faith or trust in something yet unseen, is riddled with personal stories of torment, shame, repulsion and fear. It is necessary to release all of spiritual technology of energy body to the new space. The ones meant to stay will remain. I am currently residing in an Aurora flamebody, I float as liquid in an ocean of energy and rise up in form when called upon. I am totally formless in cyberspace.

Remember, we are here to clear for the human race what they cannot clear for themselves. I might add my personal opinion here, they should not have to. The depth of darkness is related to our galactic and universal selves and really not their problem.

Peace out to everyone.
xxzoey

G. O. D.......and what to expect

Hello,

My last post was a mouthful, short and sweet with not much to grab on to....mostly, I posted to get the information into cyberspace. It is one of my way's to influence the field of the space time matrix that we live in.

What we all want to know is what is the "ascension" of earth and what is it going to be like? I can tell you my experience with the future, as it developed within my body and how I work with the "knowing" when stories of the human race are released from my cellular structure.

It is a reality that we were a fractured, fragmented race. A great contributing factor in this was the act of making fractals of our cosmic body. All in the experience of knowing ourselves, we were less and less of ourselves in each dimension. We are all aspects of the whole gestalt of the original expansion of Source. In the New space we will know this.

First, about the activity coming into earth. From outside our Universe, two worlds, the Dragon and the Lotus Worlds have joined in non sexual union in the action of mitosis, to form a cell. This is the source of of our new creation. Sensations in the body are reflecting this mitosis as a sort of fuzzy, electric "sparking". You may feel it running briefly through an entire side of the body or just a portion, especially in the legs. Depending on the development within your body, you may feel as though you are spinning large fields, in multiple directions. The orientation to chakra and meridian systems within the energy body is changing, the holographic soul blueprint is dissolving.

Now, how to explain the G.O.D. as an operating system,? It felt like an arrival, a presence in our home on Easter morning. I affectionately called it a Kitchen Witch. It felt gentle, guiding and yet curiously governing, as though I could relax the reins in areas of personal and interpersonal conflict. I felt I could trust it implicitly. Believe me, that is rare. Upon investigation there was no concentration of energy to suggest a "visitor", even our super sleuth children could not locate one. Weeks prior, it felt like the house was growing an intelligence, we were seeing walls of light.

Is this a grid? I don't know. Two weeks ago, my body formed a central pillar to the core of the source of it. A stargate system opened to me and I traveled it extensively through out the night. It is spreading across the universe. For the first time in years, I am working with the planets of our solar system. They are forming rooms on the planet surface. Interesting things are happening....to say the least.

Brain patterns are changing. When up and about, I am often quite sleepy, while I am working energetically, I am fully conscious and sound asleep at the same time. Sometimes my hands move into a kind of sign language when I need to say something. I also feel "tight", like my body is stuck. I grab hold of the matrix around me and shift it 90 degrees to the left or the right.


The past is showing up, replaying sweet memories in my external life, the future potentials are collapsing as we were destined to become mere "objects" of enslavement to the matrix. The present is not to be found really, as though we are in a sort of suspended existence.

Well as Porky the Pig from Looney Tunes says, that's all folks. For now anyway. I would love some feedback, questions are welcome. I post this to my Facebook and it would be easy to comment there. I also am available for session work by phone.

Contact me at zbolduc@yahoo.com

xxzoey

April 27, 2011

Word.........as written of in the bible. You remember , it starts out something like this:

In the beginning was the word.

I stand before this statement now, as a child of earth, remembering this time when all was word, as though it was a starry sky passed over the night before.

It was a dark and stormy night. The godhead was severed from it's body and chaos was all around us.

Breath deeply my friends, we have nothing left to do. The time of creator god is come to conclusion, not as an over ride or revision. G O D is pouring into our space as Governing Operating Deliverer. It is a pure creation system of totality, seeking chaos and bringing Divine right order. Period.

My role here on Earth was to be the template, in holographic form, of the entire cosmic body. Though an awesome job, it has been a non stop, roller coaster ride since the winter of 2005. It literally "took me out", off the grid, into a nomadic lifestyle, living on donations and shoved the lack of identity in my face. Through this experience, I have come to know the story of humanity believing it is only the creation, disconnected from it's home planet earth and unaware that it was meant to be the only being of creator. Hu Man Being or Harmonic Universal Man in Being............... word made manifest within a state of Being. We are a race now.... IN Being, a place of expression, rather than separate from the Being known before as the identity of creator, god. There is no more becoming.

Recent cosmological events have manifested themselves in our solar system. The square of Venus and Pluto a few days ago produced a flashpoint...an orgasm, that produced a white hole formation. A white hole uses spent chi and matter, purified into primal substance from black hole actions and spins it into threads of gold. This is what the space of Now is made of.