All I want to feel.....

This upcoming eclipse …..”with the South Node, or tail of the dragon, representing something being released” is not going to be what I thought it would be.

In the past, earth energy work aligned with the astrology coming in and utilized it to directly affect the seven chakra’s of the body. In preparing for the shift of consciousness, the first connection must be to know we are the planet and the planet is our body. The celestial events took on a pattern of three for that process…bring in the new, anchor and release the old. We had plenty of time to rock and roll along over a month in each phase. But not in today’s time cycle. We are Mayan cycling… every 18 days. Today's communication is from Mother Earth directly and she is saying “I know you and I know your story”

Every eclipse so far, has pushed through the entire 3 phase pattern, plus the solstice, which opened more doorways for me than the last year put together. (for example……it feels the time lord position has flipped wide open, the past is observable in it’s pristine intention, fully utilizable to preform the task it was meant to do. )

What this next eclipse is bringing to us is the deities of lunar origin. Originally created in the constellation of Lyra, they are coming through in their pure form of gifts from the Mother, through the Pleiades. Seven sister energy will blast through here powered by issues of days gone past, issues of anger, bitterness, jealousy etc over sexual distortions present in our lives tran-muted, shifted so they will feel like the love of the original intention in creating the gifts. Those who follow a 12 step program can know this is a Step 9 time…the promises. It is 9th Dimensional identities of you….upgraded in the harmonics and color spectrum to a new Universe….today, Now.

Observable in our lives here will be recall scenarios/stories of personal deities in past incarnations. Our pleasure principle in regards to Cancer themes of hearth and home were developed in the archtypes of this time. Hindu gods in particular, but you can be sure there will be more to show, ascended master types.

My last lover and I would zone into our past lives together during sex and the stories were better than any fantasy. Somebody or something took the pure enjoyment of sexuality and threw incest into the mix.We want to recall the love of the past and do a reality check. Nothing more than that is required because we know what felt good and what didn’t. Conflict over sexuality is so NOT confusion of what feels good….it’s the intermingling of relationship memory…For family’s to incarnate together, they came back fucking the father, mother or brother in next life.

So, to tell the truth, I quit smoking today and my ability to be pissed off over this is plenty amplified. I have a new FWB relationship going with no past life connection of intimacy. It’s a clean plate that frankly feels a void present though the sex is right up there on the top of the chart.

Today, I will repose to the shaman within, be the honey , the bee and the flower, the lamb, the lover and the earth. Love is all I want to feel today.

Blessings to you all,

xxzoey

June 16th, 2011

For a few weeks now, codes have been back and on me like white on rice. This signals the release of our Ancients and a transfer of responsibility to us, for the final days of clearing. What was not possible in other cycles of time, due to the under development of our personal, spiritual technology, is no longer relevant. This begs the question to each of us individually, whom do you serve?

This is a very delicate question to ask and it has bothered me for a long time now. I am grateful that the time is here in NOW to ask it of all of you. I share my process with you in hopes that it is helpful.

Lately, life had been back to feeling like I was sitting in the trenches, so much boredom, with too much time to question the anxiety I was feeling. I had to examine this and it begged the questions of identity. Only soldiers sit in trenches and do I want that for myself? No, plain and simple, no. I am sick to death of being triggered into dark thoughts every time I see a distortion manifested upon this reality. Why does this even happen? Because I am holding the knowledge of what was and forgetting the promise of who I am.

I recently found the last embodied member of my gestalt of nine. Unbeknown to him, was that he was holding Atlantian memory for Lotus and Dragon lineages. I was challenged to examine my own reveals over the last 6 years and came to the conclusion that not another one of my family was going to feel the pain of this drama, in order to step into a position that was quickly dissolving anyway.

As all things good here are a projection onto the screen that is us, I searched for solution and resolution. Since the start of my journey in 2005, I have had to say "yes" to so much, in spite of my fear, ignorance and innocence. Then, I was reminded of an experience many years ago, that explained to me it is truly only God that says stop in this earthly place. I dug deep into my own divinity to connect to that God power in the word "stop". I was able gently release my family member from holding the Atlantian trauma, with out pain or injury to myself.

Shortly after, I began to experience the releasing of what I refer to as Mother Source energy. As it flowed through me, there was massive rage to behold, coupled with bitterness and resentment. In my role as an Ancient, holder of the cosmic body, yet not the origin of Mother, I did not claim any of this, and in a day or two the energy changed into sadness and a feeling of destitution, loneliness and failure. These, I could relate to, having been a mother in this lifetime with all of these feelings towards parenting my children. I knew that the trick was release and it happened in a new way.

Now that we are not so multi dimensional, having anchored much into ourselves what we are, and formless within our auric field, I saw that identities of myself were layered like faces made of cellophane over the entire skull. As I pushed them up off my head, I began to fill them with all thoughts associated with the negative and immature (spiritually) emotions and sent them away. My anxiety is leveling off, though life is still quite odd.